02 May 2009

Word of the day

One of the cool things about homeschooling is how much I get to learn. Today we did a math lesson, but reviewing the next lesson, I learned a new word. It's probably a word I learned way back when, but had certainly forgotten.

If it was a question on Jeopardy, I'd never have had a chance. Having been an engineer in my past life and being required to take YEARS of math in every shape and form, I'm surprised I didn't know this word. More surprising is my hubby (engineer too) didn't know this word.

The word is tesselate. Meaning: A tessellation (or tiling) is an arrangement of closed shapes that completely cover the plane without overlapping and without leaving gaps. When a tessellation uses only one shape, it’s called a pure tessellation.

Tesselations are something MC Escher was good at. Check out this site. Squares tesselate a space, but octagons do not. Who would've imagined that fish could tesselate.



My son is in Kindergarten. Seems like a pretty big word for Kindergarten, but I also think kids have an incredible capacity to understand stuff and adults don't always give them credit.

On the other hand, my son does manage to "misunderstand" a lot of things. I think he's being selective, especially when it comes to understanding when it's bed time.

But, on a positive note, despite being sick and out of commission for awhile, homeschool went on and we are almost done with this year's math course. We are using RightStart math and are on Lesson 74 of 77. Woo hoo!!! Almost done! We made it and my son is doing math pretty well for Kindergarten, tessellations and all.

26 April 2009

St. Philomena


Throughout my life I've prayed for the intercession of various saints. I attribute my daughter's cure from spina bifida, in a large part, to the intercession of St. Rita along with devotion to the Divine Mercy.

I tend to invoke a litany of saints when I pray, sadly however, never fostering a close devotion to any of them.

Here's my list of saints I ask for intercession just in case your're wondering.
St. Monica, St. Clare, St. Rita, St. John of the Cross, St. Therese of Lisieux, St. Teresa of Avila, Our Lady of Mt. Carmel (also use the titles Our Lady of Guadalupe, Our Lady of La Salette, and Our Lady of Sorrows), Fr. Solanus Casey, St. Joseph, St. Maxmillian Kolbe, St. Jude, Padre Pio, JP II, in addition to deceased family members and friends, all the Guardian Angels, all the Poor Souls along with ALL the saints in Heaven (what did Jesus say about casting a wide net?).

Recently I've been introduced to St. Philomena and seem drawn to her and her story. Joined a St. Philomena prayer group last night. Enrolled in her cord, have been saying her chaplet and novena. She's known to be playful...and a wonder worker. My kind of saint. Father K said that, although she was martyred at 13, she doesn't like to be thought of as a child and the clothes of her statue, enclosed in a glass case at her shrine in Italy, have been known to be ripped apart or rearranged if they are "too young" or not the way she wants them. A prankster...my kind of saint. Reminds me of a priest friend of the family who always spoke fondly of his Guardian Angel and how his angel was a prankster too.

Below is a snippet of the story of St. Philomena. Here's the link.

The Story of St. Philomena

Three separate individuals in different parts of Italy, and completely unknown to each other, began receiving details of the life of St. Philomena through various modes of private revelation. The most well-known of these were locutions received by Mother Luisa di Gesu in August, 1833. These locutions were granted the official Imprimatur by the Holy Office that same year, December 21, 1833.

Mother Luisa had been praying before a statue of St. Philomena when she thought she heard a voice tell her the specific date of death (August 10) of Philomena and specific details of her journey from Rome to Mugnano, details as yet unknown to the public. Mother Luisa, fearing she was experiencing an illusion, increased her prayer and fasting. Under obedience to her Superior in whom she had confided, she observed complete silence during the revelations. Mother Luisa’s Superior then wrote to Fr. Di Lucia, reporting the revelations and asking him to confirm the veracity of the specific details reportedly revealed by St. Philomena. Fr. Di Lucia confirmed every detail and requested that the nun “be open” to any additional revelations pertaining to the life of St. Philomena. Again under obedience, Mother Luisa prayed to St. Philomena for further information and immediately the “same voice” began revealing the historical facts of the life of the 4th century martyr.

The following is the account of the life of St. Philomena as taken from the official account of Fr. Di Lucia’s Relazione Istorici di Santa Filomena and subsequent annals.

My dear sister, I am the daughter of a Prince who governed a small state in Greece. My mother was also of royal blood. My parents were without children. They were idolaters. They continually offered sacrifices and prayers to their false gods. A doctor from Rome, named Publius, lived in the palace in the service of m father. This doctor professed Christianity. Seeing the affliction of my parents, by the impulse of the Holy Spirit, he spoke to them of Christianity and promised to pray for them if they consented to receive Baptism. The grace which accompanied his words enlightened their understanding and triumphed over their will. They became Christians and obtained the long desired happiness that Publius had assured them as the reward of their conversion. At the moment of my birth, they gave me the name of “Lumina”, an allusion to the light of Faith of which I had been, as it were, the fruit. The day of my Baptism they called me “Philomena”. Daughter of Light, because on that day I was born to the Faith. The affection which my parents bore me was so great that they would have me always with them.

It was on this account that they took me to Rome on a journey that my father was obliged to make on the occasion of an unjust war with which he was threatened by the haughty Diocletian. I was then thirteen years old. On our arrival in the capital of the world, we proceeded to the palace of the Emperor and were admitted for an audience. As soon as Diocletian saw me, his eyes were fixed upon me. He appeared to be prepossessed in this manner during the entire time that my father was stating with animated feelings everything that could serve for his defense. As soon as Father had ceased to speak, the Emperor desired him to be disturbed no longer, to banish all rear, to think only of living in happiness. These are the Emperor’s words, “I shall place at your disposal all the force of the Empire. I ask only one thing, that is the hand of your daughter.”

My father dazzled with an honor he was far from expecting, willingly acceded on the spot to the proposal of the Emperor. When we returned to our own dwelling, Father and Mother did all they could to induce me to yield to Diocletian’s wishes and to theirs. I cried. “Do you wish that for the love of a man I should break the promise I have made to Jesus Christ? My virginity belongs to Him. I can no longer dispose of it.”

“But you were young then, too young,” answered my father, “to have formed such an engagement.” He joined the most terrible threats to the command that he gave me to accept the hand of Diocletian. The grace of my God rendered me invincible. My father, not being able to make the Emperor relent, in order to disengage himself from the promise he had given, was obliged by Diocletian to bring me to the Imperial Chamber. I had to withstand for sometime beforehand a new attack from my father’s anger. My mother, uniting her efforts to his, endeavored to conquer my resolution. Caresses, threats, everything was employed to reduce me to compliance. At last I saw both of my parents fall at my knees and say to me with tears in their eyes, “My child, have pity on your father, your mother, your country, our country, our subjects.”

“No, no!” I answered. “My virginity, which I have vowed to God, comes before everything, before you, before my country. My kingdom is Heaven.”

My words plunged them into despair and they brought me before the Emperor who, on his part, did all in his power to win me. But his promises, his allurements, his threats, were equally useless. He then got into a violent fit of anger and, influenced by the devil, had me cast into one of the prisons of the palace, where I was loaded with chains. Thinking that pain and shame would weaken the courage with which my Divine Spouse inspired me, he came to see me every day. After several days, the Emperor issued an order for my chains to be loosed that I might take a small portion and bread and water. He renewed his attacks, some of which, if not for the grace of God, would have been fatal to purity. The defeats which he always experienced were for me to preludes to new tortures. Prayer supported me. I ceased not to recommend myself to Jesus and His most pure Mother.

My captivity lasted thirty-seven days. Then, in the midst of a heavenly light I saw Mary holding her Divine Son in her arms. “My daughter.” She said to me, “three days more of prison and after forty days you shall leave this state of pain.”

Such happy news renewed my courage to prepare for the frightful combat awaiting. The Queen of Heaven reminded me of the name I had received in Baptism saying, “You are Lumina, as your Spouse is called Light or Sun. Fear not, I will aid you. Now, nature, whose weakness asserts itself, is humbling you. In the moment of struggle, grace will come to you to lend its force. The angel who is mine also, Gabriel, whose name expresses force, will come to your succor. I will recommend you especially to his care.”

The vision disappeared leaving m prison scented with a fragrance like incense. I experienced a joy out of his world. Something indefinable. What the Queen of Angels had prepared for me was soon experienced. Diocletian, despairing of bending me, decided upon public chastisement to offend my virtue. He condemned me to be stripped and scourged like the Spouse I preferred to him. These were his horrifying words, “Since she is not ashamed to prefer to an Emperor like me, as malefactor condemned to an infamous death by his own people, she deserves that my justice shall treat her as he was treated.”

The prison guards hesitated to unclothe me entirely, but they did tie me to a column in the presence of the great men of the court. They lashed me with violence until I was bathed in blood. My whole body felt like one open wound but I did not faint. The tyrant had me dragged back to the dungeon expecting me to die. I hoped to join my heavenly Spouse. Two angels shining with light appeared to me in the darkness. They poured a soothing balm on my wounds, bestowing on me a vigor I did not have before the torture. When the Emperor was informed of the change that had come over me, he had me brought before him. He viewed me with a greedy desire and tried to persuade me that I owed my healing and regained vigor to Jupiter, another god, that he, the Emperor, had sent to me. He attempted to impress me with his belief that Jupiter desired me to be Empress of Rome. Joining to these seductive words promises of great honor, including the most flattering words. Diocletian tried to caress me. Fiendishly, he attempted to complete the work of Hell which he had begun. The Divine Spirit to whom I am indebted for constancy in preserving my purity seemed to fill me with light and knowledge. To all the proofs which I gave of the solidity of our Faith, neither Diocletian nor his own courtiers could find an answer.

Then the frenzied Emperor dashed at me, commanding a guard to chain an anchor around my neck and bury me deep in the waters of the Tiber. The order was executed. I was cast into the water, but God sent to me two angels who unfastened the anchor. It fell into the river mud where it remains, no doubt, to the present time. The angels transported me gently in full view of the multitude upon the riverbank. I came back unharmed, not even wet, after being plunged with the heavy anchor. When a cry of joy rose from the watchers on the shore, and so many embraced Christianity by proclaiming their belief in my God, Diocletian attributed my preservation to secret magic.

Then the Emperor had me dragged through the streets of Rome and shot with a shower of arrows. My blood flowed but I did not faint. Diocletian thought that I was dying and commanded the guards to carry me back to the dungeon. Heaven honored me with a new favor there. I fell into a sweet sleep. A second time the tyrant attempted to have me pierced with sharper darts. Again the archers bent their bows. The gathered all their strength but the arrows refused to second their intentions. The Emperor was present. In a rage, he called me a magician and, thinking that the action of the fire could destroy the enchantment, he ordered the darts to be made red in a furnace and directed against my heart. He was obeyed. But these darts, after having gone over a part of the space which they were to cross to come to me, took a quite contrary direction and returned to strike those by whom they had been hurled. Sic of the archers were killed by them. Several among the renounced paganism. The people began to render public testimony to the power of God that protected me.

These murmurs and the acclamations infuriated the tyrant. He determined to hasten my death by piercing my neck with a lance. My soul took flight towards my heavenly Spouse who placed me with the crown of virginity and the palm of martyrdom in a distinguished place among the elect. The day that was so happy for me and saw me enter into glory was Friday, the third hour after midday, the same hour that saw my Divine Master expire.

What is noteworthy from a historical perspective is not only that this revelation was confirmed y two other individuals unknown to each other (one a priest, the other an historian), but these other confirmatory historical facts: 1) Diocletian was known for executing Christians by the use of arrows, an exemplified by St. Sebastian; 2) Diocletian was also known for killing Christians by tying anchors around their necks and throwing them into the water; 3) The reference to “Lumena” -- the name given to her at birth, “Light” -- and then at Baptism, “Fi Lumena”, “Daughter of Light”, may explain the arrangement of the tiles found at the grave (“Lumena”, her first given name, was on the first tile).

24 April 2009

A few things

Wow. It's been a long time since I last posted!!

I am doing OK, hanging in there as I frequently say lately. I GREATLY appreciate all the prayers and hope you don't tire of keeping me in your intentions. Thank you all very much...I've received many well wishes and am very grateful for all your kind thoughts and prayers!!

Secondly, please keep my husband's uncle in your prayers. He isn't supposed to make it through the day - he's dying of emphysema. May God have mercy on him.

UPDATE: Uncle Doug passed away early Saturday morning. Please pray for the repose of his soul.

Lastly, Vincenzo, a dear albeit insane friend, nominated me for a Cannonball award. Last year I was nominated in Best Underappreciated Blog. This year, V nominated me in the category of Best Blog in Need of Updating, or some such thing. The Crescat is still taking nominations until May 1. After that, let 'er rip and vote...you can even vote for my blog in this back-handed compliment category...if anyone is still reading my blog after my long absence *sigh* Sorry for being scarce. Discerning whether or not I can, or even desire, to keep blogging.

Oh, and check out the above blogs...and nominate your favorites...and then make sure you vote early and often!!! At least this year no one can use "Father Z wins everything" as an excuse...seems he's been banned for being too popular...to have such problems....

07 March 2009

Pneumonia

Now my son has walking pneumonia. I have no idea how he got it because with me being sick lately, he hasn't really gone anywhere.

Please keep us all in your prayers...a Chaplet of Divine Mercy would be wonderful!!

02 March 2009

My friend Job

Went to the doctor today. The MD kind, not DC.

I have strep.

I've never had strep before, but now, on top of all the other nasty things I have been dealing with since November, I have a "nasty case" of strep! Before the assistant even swabbed my throat, she said she would be surprised if I didn't have strep since I was the worst she's seen yet this year...and there were already four other positive cases before me that morning.

Just happened that my husband was with me since we had much running to do. My aunt was watching the kids.

As soon as the assistant left the room after confirming I had tested positive for strep, I hung my head and said to my husband, "God is trying to kill me."

He said, "If God wanted you dead...."

I know, woe is me. *Violins playing sympathetic music*

To top it off, I have been dealing with my son and daughter being sick all weekend. My daughter was well enough to send to school for her first day (which went very well!), but my son is miserable.

Both kids get tested tomorrow for strep. I hope they don't have it.

I dread telling my daughter's teacher that on my daughter's first day, I sent her to school with strep. Not something that is going to win me any brownie points.

On the VERY bright side, my ears are getting better and better. Still ringing and driving me crazy, but not as bad as they had been.

Conclusion: There is a God and maybe he doesn't want to kill me, He's just letting me know He's there.

And, what was that quote by St. Teresa...something along the lines of the reason Jesus doesn't have many friends is because He treats them in this manner!!!

27 February 2009

Mommy trauma

As most of you know you, I homeschool my son. We just started last fall in Kindergarten, but so far it's going well and I like it. Think he's learning almost as much as I am.

But, on Monday my little three-year old daughter will be put on a bus and sent to school. Not your standard pre-school, but a special school offered by the district for kids with speech and language delays.

Hard decision. Both my son and daughter are in private speech therapy, but there's only so much insurance money to cover the $120 per half hour, per kid, each week. So, the private speech therapist suggested I contact the school district to get the kids tested and find out if they qualify for (free) services with the district.

If things weren't already challenging enough trying to help my kids get up to speed with their speech and language, now I have to deal with the dreaded school district. I have to tell them I'm a homeschooler, which comes across as an unspoken criticism of public schools and teachers. Then I have to jump through all of their hoops, which includes filling out a conscientious objector form because I don't immunize my kids.

Before any teacher or specialist has even seen my kids, I'm already labelled a right-wing nut.

But, wait, there's more. There are several forms that ask about my daughter's outside involvement, I guess it's looking to see how much "socialization" she gets. The form is too black-and-white for me. If my daughter is in another pre-school program, a box gets checked for that. If she's in day-care, check the next box. If she's involved in any other district run educational programs, check that box. I protest that she's involved in a children's bible study program every Thursday and numerous homeschool activities like going to the Nature Center, MN Orchestra, Children's' Theatre, etc., etc. I believe she participates in more activities than many children in her age group.

The box that gets checked on my daughter's form is: No outside involvement.

What? No outside involvement?? Is she locked in a dank closet somewhere?

Of course, things are going down hill because I already came across as a right-wing nut in my choice to homeschool, but now that I mention that the "only" outside school setting my daughter participates in happens to be, egad!, bible study, then the rubber stamp gets pulled out of the bottom drawer and I get "religious wing nut" invisibly, but indelibly, stamped on my forehead.

Actually, her teacher seemed very nice and didn't blink or roll her eyes when I mentioned homeschooling, it was just all the people I talked to before getting to this point that treated me "special." Part of the reason we didn't pursue services for my son, is that since he's already in school, homeschool, there were so many "if not, then" turns in their procedures that nobody seemed to know who we, as homeschoolers, were supposed to talk to. Appointments were arranged for testing only to have them call and cancel because my son was already of school age. There's a different process for him, you need to call another lady. Of course, that lady had no idea what I was talking about or who to forward me to.

But, Monday morning at 7:48, the bus will pull up in front of our house and gather my daughter for her first day. I've prepared her as best I can and she seems thrilled to be going. It's my husband and I that are concerned about bussing a three year-old. One of the three teachers rides on the bus and picks her up, straps her in her special seat, and then they take her to the school's front door. Upon arrival, the primary teacher meets the bus and brings the kids into the building and into the class room. NOT an easy concept to get used to, especially when my daughter is not able to tell anyone who she is, where she lives, or even if she needs to go potty.

She will attend school MWF from 8-10:30am. That's a huge amount.

Hubby is taking the morning off to see his little one safely on the bus. The rest of the family plans to hop in the car and follow the bus to school, just to ease our minds. I hope it does. Hubby is getting a chance to see the school and meet the teachers today, so hope that helps too.

Am sure my daughter will have a great time and she really needs the therapy. To my daughter, it is just another great adventure and a class with kids to play with just like in bible study. For the rest of us, it's been a long and difficult process and she hasn't even stepped on the bus yet.

25 February 2009

Sage mentor

Vincenzo sent me a Dogbert cartoon earlier and it reminded me of the sage wisdom of Dilbert, who happens to be a hero of mine. When I worked closely with the sales force in my last job, I had this posted outside my cube.

Dilbert's "Salary Theorem" states:
Scientists and Engineers can never earn as much as administrators and sales people.

This theorem can now be proved mathematically:
Given: Power = Work / Time
and, Knowledge is Power

Substituting knowledge for power, we obtain: Knowledge = Work/ Time

If Time = Money, then: Knowledge = Work/ Money

Solving this equation for money, we obtain:

Money = Work/ Knowledge

Therefore, as knowledge approaches zero, money approaches infinity, regardless of the amount of work done.

Conclusion: the less you know, the more you make.

23 February 2009

Hands of a priest

Just sharing some thoughts that have been on my mind for the last few weeks.

As I mentioned in prior posts, I received the Anointing of the Sick a few weeks ago, what used to be commonly called Last Rites or Extreme Unction. Of course, I was hoping to receive a complete and immediate cure for my tinnitus, but am grateful that the sacrament is also to give me the grace necessary to endure.

I never envisioned receiving this sacrament at this point of my life. I always saw myself as old and infirm, the priest visiting and anointing me in preparation for death.

In 10th grade I was anointed when I was confirmed. I had no appreciation for my Faith. I didn't even know what the Immaculate Conception was back then. I don't even remember if I was in a state of grace when the archbishop confirmed me.

The profound thing that sticks with me from this experience of receiving the Anointing of the Sick is the power of a priest, the power in his hands. It was amazing and very humbling to have the priest, the same priest who anointed my father years ago, and my mother many years before that, anoint me. Lay his hands on my head, anoint my palms and forehead. Anoint and bless my ears. Hear him saying prayers over me.

It was very humbling. I was very grateful. I don't think I will ever see Father John the same way again. I don't think I will ever see any priest the same way.

"In persona Christi" certainly means the priest is more than a place holder.

"Priests who dwell upon earth and make their abode therein have been commissioned nonetheless to dispense things which are in heaven, and have received an authority such as God has not given either to angels or archangels. For it has not been said to them: All that you bind on earth shall be bound in heaven (Matthew 18:18). Those who rule upon earth, indeed, have authority to bind, but bodies only, whereas the binding done by priests takes hold of the soul itself and reaches to heaven. What priests execute below, God ratifies above, and the Master confirms the judgment of His servants."
~ St. John Chrysostom

22 February 2009

Sweet Little Jesus

I stopped by to visit the Carmelite Hermits today to give them an update on my condition since I received the Anointing of the Sick two weekends ago. It was a much nicer visit from my point of view since I was feeling better.

Two weekends ago, just as Father finished anointing me, my son said, "That was a stupid prayer." *Cringe* I don't think my son liked to see that his mom was sick and people were praying...this was his response to the situation.

Today, however, he redeemed himself. He's quite the little singer, making up lullabies for his sister each day at nap time and also singing her a lullaby before bed. While my husband and I were trying to talk to Brother Joseph, my son was sitting next to Brother and started singing. We couldn't really understand what he was singing since it was an original score, so Brother asked him. "The Glory of God," replied my son.

Ah, bonus points for that! I thought it was going to be a song about how Megatron and the Autobots were killing each other.

Brother Joseph is quite a singer himself, teaching chant to various Carmelite orders and offered to sing us a song he had written himself. It was very sweet and tender and really provides a peak at Brother's interior life. Here are the lyrics...Brother provided me the original copy of the music he wrote for it too, but will have to scan that later. It's really a Christmastime song, so you have time to learn it before December rolls around again.

SWEET LITTLE JESUS
1. Sweet Little Jesus
When Mary gave You birth,
Heavenly Angels
Sang us "Peace on Earth."

2. Sweet Little Jesus
Held gently on the breast
Of Your sweet Mother,
Mary, Virgin Blest.

3. Sweet Little Jesus
St. Joseph held You too,
Always adoring,
Wholly loving You.

4. Sweet Little Jesus
Poor Shepherds came to You,
Hearts full of wonder,
At their Shepherd True.

5. Sweet Little Jesus
Given Your Holy Name,
And all who love it,
Feel a Living Flame.

6. Sweet Little Jesus
Presented to the Lord;
Raised up by Simeon,
Anna, too, adored.

7. Sweet Little Jesus,
Three Wise Men from afar
Find You, True Wisdom,
Guided by Your Star.

8. Sweet Little Jesus
Rescued from Herod's harm;
Fleeing to Egypt,
Safe in St. Joseph's arm.

9. Sweet Little Jesus
Returned to Palestine;
Living most hidden,
For You our hearts pine.

10. Sweet Little Jesus
Still with us even now;
Hid in the Euch'rist
Though we know not how.

11. Sweet Little Jesus
Coming in us to dwell;
Sweetest Communion:
Our Emmanuel!

12. Sweet Little Jesus
Our hearts we give to You;
Take them and keep them
Faithful unto You.
Copyright, Carmelite Hermitage of the Blessed Virgin Mary

He also wrote the following, which I told him proved he's not a Franciscan.

THE TWO TURTLE DOVES
Listen companion,
You know as well as I,
That we are both doomed
Not again to fly!

That's right, you know, then
What shall become of us;
Well, let us go, then,
Joyful, without fuss!

These two that take us,
With their Sweet Little Boy,
Will so employ us,
That the world find joy.

Look her comes Simeon,
Hear what he says to them;
This Babe we'll die for
Is a special Gem!

Ah, yes I see now,
She is so beautiful,
Yet She must suffer,
That that joy be full.

What does it matter,
Broke' neck or holocaust,
Shed blood or burnt up,
Let's not count the cost!

Come, then, together,
For them we both shall die
Then for all Ages
We shall truly fly!
Copyright, Carmelite Hermitage of the Blessed Virgin Mary

21 February 2009

On my feet

After being scolded by a few people, here's an update.

I'm much better than I had been. The horrible ringing has toned way down, thanks to the help of a chiropractor. Although I had used alternative medicine before, I had never been to a chiropractor. My ears went from raging to annoying ringing. It is still hard to deal with the persistent ringing each day and am typically mentally and physically exhausted around dinner time, but they are getting slightly better all the time.

Thank you all for your prayers. I really appreciate them and hope you continue to pray for my complete healing.

I was even well enough to go on with my previously planned Usborne book show last Thursday night. Someone came late, walked in the door and managed to win the door prize before she had even sat down. Wish I had luck and panache like that :)

I am hoping to post something other than medical updates soon! Now that my head can hold a complete thought instead of just hearing ringing!! I'm still seeing the chiro several times a week (and will be going in to see a doc about a white noise device to help my brain learn to not hear the noise, not a cure, just a way to cope) and have a few other developments going on around here (nothing bad) that are needing attention, not to mention that I think I was a homeschooler...oh, yeah school. Still fitting that in in between appointments.

I think my angel gave me the foresight to plan a week off of school next week since I will need it to catch up from the week I was in bed. Surprisingly, I'm pretty much on track!

Thank God for getting me to this point...now if He would just completely stop the noise...

Again, thank you all so much for your prayers and concern!

10 February 2009

Holding pattern

As Cathy mentioned in a comment on my prior post, I am quite sick. Have been pretty much confined to bed since last Thursday night with this tinnitus (ringing in the ears) and also think I got a stomach bug that still persists, along with a nasty sinus infection.

Received the Anointing of the sick on Sunday. Please pray that God's mercy rests on my ears as the tinnitus is debilitating.

01 February 2009

The circus was in town

I'm a cradle Catholic. I like to say my family, in a large part, has been Catholic since St. Patrick converted Ireland. But, for a time I was a CINO Catholic.

No, not that I disagreed with the teachings of the Church. Even considering how poorly catechized I was, I never doubted the Church. I was a CINO because I didn't attend Mass for several years when I lived in Seattle. Still considering myself Catholic, but not keeping the basic and most critical commandments. I was Catholic enough to know the grave state of my soul, but ignorant enough to figure God wouldn't "call me home" while I was separated from the Church in this way.

I didn't see that I was exercising my own free will and would be held accountable for it. God's plan for my life would go on as planned, it was my choice to be in a state of grace, or not, when "my time came." A very risky and fool-hardy game to play given I'm not a gambler.

On one occasion when my father was visiting, he asked me, being the good dad he was, when was the last time I had been to confession. I told him it had been awhile. It had been years.

Guilt can work wonders and my dad had unintentionally pricked my conscience enough that I was ashamed at how far I had drifted, how long I had been away from the Church. Undoubtedly, it was the prayers of my father and many others that had kept me on the straight and narrow during the time I was "outside" or "separated" from the Church and no longer in the state of grace. Now that I keep myself in the state of grace through frequent reception of communion and confession, I see how utterly important and essential that grace is, and am humbled in the realization that someone, many someones, must've been praying for me to have kept me from falling into any of the many pitfalls that are out in the world.

After I went to confession with a priest who was very liberal (it was hard to find one that wasn't liberal in WA at this time), the repulsion I had at my sins and not wanting to have to go through the emotional ringer of purging everything and coming back to the Church again, I resolved I would get my back side back to Mass every weekend.

The abuses were the primary reasons I drifted away from the Church. My husband and I couldn't find a parish we could half-way agree with. It was irritating. It was frustrating. Eventually, I figured that if I was just going to be angered and upset each time I went to Mass, then I might as well not go. This wasn't a sudden decision, it happened gradually as I became more and more angry at the abuses going on, even in the "conservative" parishes.

I did struggle a great deal after I came back into the Church to find a parish I could deal with. We spent a lot of time parish hopping, hoping that each weekend we would find a "home." Parish after parish, abuse after abuse. It was bad, it was almost disheartening.

However, I did come to realize that I was there to see Jesus and the early Christians gave their lives for this privilege. Despite the abuses and the upset I felt, I realized there was some pride on my part underlying all this contentiousness and finally saw I was there for Jesus and could put up with an hour of irritation and sometimes a circus atmosphere to be with Jesus and to receive Him in the Eucharist. Pride finally aside, I saw that I was the one hurting my relationship with Him by dictating the terms and only wanting to attend Mass if the conditions were perfect and to my satisfaction.

And Catholics around the world were grateful to even be able to attend Mass. Some were risking their lives to practice their Faith and here I was wanting things my way.

Attending Mass then became as it should: a privilege and honor to be with God. I was able to tune out so much of the rest of the bunk around me, offer up whatever distracted or angered me, and just concentrate on the reason I was there.

NOTE: Thank you Chris for bring a hugely awful typo to my attention! You are a saint. For the rest of you that read this and didn't say anything, if God doesn't get you, I will :) Hope you all had a good laugh...such an apropos error. I didn't hardly sleep last night and I wrote the post every early so that's my excuse!

29 January 2009

Rife with irony

I'm probably a day late and a dollar short with this since you may have already seen this video/commercial created by Catholic Vote. I hear it was even on Rush Limbaugh.

Am having some problems with either my browser or blogger dealing with this video, so if it doesn't work by clicking on the video below, please visit the Catholic Vote site and watch it from there. Or go here for the YouTube link.

NOTE: I removed the embedded YouTube link because the problem was with my computer. You can still view the video at Catholic Vote or the offsite YouTube link above. My new computer is a Quad Core (64 bit) and this video wasn't compatible with my processor. What a bummer. However, I did see it on EWTN last night.

And, Catholic Vote tried to have this video shown during the Superbowl, but the NFL declined to air it because they didn't want to be involved in partisan issues. They can show smut, but not this.

Prayers please

UPDATE: My FIL is home. No damage was found to his heart but a they did find a narrowing by his aortic "Y" just beyond one the stents he has that needs to be addressed. First they will try to treat it with medication. And, there is a spot of calcification they will also treat with medication. A few blockages were found in his legs, at the sites where they had previously entered to run the stents up into his heart.

After four days of horrendous ringing in my ears and getting no sleep, I went to the doctor. I hoped that my cold had caused some inflammation in my ears that caused my tinnitus to amp up so dramatically, since I knew my Eustachian tubes had been infected. Also, I was so jittery and anxious from not having slept for so long that, as much as I hate taking drugs, I was going to ask the doctor to give me some sleeping pills. And, I wanted some anti-anxiety medication in case things got to that point.

Doctor gave me Flonase, a nasal steroid to hopefully clear any inflammation, Lunesta to sleep, and Paxil for anxiety. As soon as I took the Flonase, I could tell the ringing had lessened somewhat. It was that fast. As soon as the Flonase hit, I was able to sleep. I did wake up a little later to take the Lunesta, which totally freaked me out just because I don't like things to take over my body or senses (I would make a very poor drug addict). Honestly, I couldn't tell what the Lunesta did for me, but I did sleep fairly well, just not any differently than usual. Didn't take the Paxil and have no plans to now. My ears have mercifully toned down to slightly more than they had been and at a level where I can function. It's funny that I'm so thankful my ears are only ringing half as loud :)

Thank you St. Jude, St. Catherine of Sienna, St. Therese

Thank you, everyone, for all of your prayers. Thank you very, very much!!


Please pray for my father-in-law who just suffered a minor heart attack. He has had several heart attacks, surgeries, stents, a stroke that left him partially paralyzed, etc., in the past few years. He was just in for a check-up a little over a week ago and they found a slight blockage in one artery. Doctor told him it wasn't a concern at this point, didn't put any restrictions on his activity, just increased his dose of nitroglycerin. Then this happened. Fortunately, early tests have shown no permanent damage to his heart. He was moved to a larger hospital last night for more tests. Please also remember my mother-in-law in your prayers since she is pretty traumatized by these events.

And, could you please pray for a relief to my tinnitus. Just when I got over my cold and got two good nights of sleep, then my ears started ringing much louder than they normally do, making it impossible to sleep since it sounded like I was inside a jet engine.

Thank you, I appreciate your prayers very much. As the Carmelites say, may God reward you.

28 January 2009

Lounging in the pink pokey

Ok, I found this e-mail that I received pretty interesting. I don't know if it's true, so take that as a big ol' caveat, but the idea alone is amusing.

I used to be a supporter of the death penalty and also thought that if prisons were more like dungeons (dank, dark and no cable TV) then criminals would be less likely to treat prison time like a day at the spa. Today, I have a problem with the death penalty because I don't like the government to be in the business of killing its own people, but certainly can see how others support it. I also don't think a dungeon is necessarily humane treatment, but question why there are so many perks for inmates that I don't even have in my own home because I can't afford them.

Some days it's almost worth committing a crime just to be locked up and have the ability to watch the Oxygen network.

But, back on the topic of prisons, I had a good friend in college who was from France. One day she was going on about how awful the British prisons were a few short hundred years ago (think Tower of London). And, I said, "At least they weren't French prisons (think Les Mis)." To this day, the glare I got still gives me chills.

Below is what I received about one man's efforts in the AZ prison system.
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You all remember Sheriff Joe Arpaio of Arizona, who painted the jail cells pink and made the inmates wear pink prison garb. Well...SHERIFF JOE IS AT IT AGAIN!

Maricopa County was spending approx. $18 million dollars a year on stray animals, like cats and dogs. Sheriff Joe offered to take the department over, and the County Supervisors said okay.

The animal shelters are now all staffed and operated by prisoners. They feed and care for the strays. Every animal in his care is taken out and walked twice daily. He now has prisoners who are experts in animal nutrition and behavior. They give great classes for anyone who'd like to adopt an animal. He has literally taken stray dogs off the street, given them to the care of prisoners, and had them place in dog shows.

The best part? His budget for the entire department is now under $3 million. Teresa and I adopted a Weimaraner from a Maricopa County shelter two years ago. He was neutered, and current on all shots, in great health, and even had a microchip inserted the day we got him. Cost us $78. The prisoners get the benefit of about $0.28 an hour for working, but most would work for free, just to be out of their cells for the day. Most of his budget is for utilities, building maintenance, etc. He pays the prisoners out of the fees collected for adopted animals.

I have long wondered when the rest of the country would take a look at the way he runs the jail system, and copy some of his ideas. He has a huge farm, donated to the county years ago, where inmates can work, and they grow most of their own fresh vegetables and food, doing all the work and harvesting by hand. He has a pretty good sized hog farm, which provides meat, and fertilizer. It fertilizes the Christmas tree nursery, where prisoners work, and you can buy a living Christmas tree for $6-$8 for the Holidays, and plant it later. We have six trees in our yard from the Prison.

Yup, he was re-elected last year with 83% of the vote. Now he's in trouble with the ACLU again. He painted all his buses and vehicles with a mural, that has a special hotline phone number painted on it, where you can call and report suspected illegal aliens. Immigrations and Customs Enforcement wasn't doing enough in his eyes, so he had 40 deputies trained specifically for enforcing immigration laws, started up his hotline, and bought 4 new buses just for hauling folks back to the border. He's kind of a 'Git-R Dun' kind of Sheriff.

TO THOSE OF YOU NOT FAMILIAR WITH JOE ARPAIO, HE IS THE MARICOPA, ARIZONA COUNTY SHERIFF AND HE KEEPS GETTING ELECTED OVER AND OVER!.

THIS IS ONE OF THE REASONS WHY:

He created the 'Tent City Jail'.

He has jail meals down to .40 cents a serving and charges the inmates for them.

He stopped smoking and porno magazines in the jails. Took away their weights and cut off all but 'G' movies.

He started chain gangs so the inmates could do free work on county and city projects.

Then he started chain gangs for women so he wouldn't get sued for discrimination.

He took away cable TV until he found out there was a Federal Court order that required cable TV for jails, so he hooked up the cable TV again only letting in the Disney and Weather Channel.

When asked why the weather channel? He replied, "So they will know how hot it's gonna be while they are working on the Chain Gang".

He cut off coffee since it has zero nutritional value.

When the inmates complained, he told them, "this isn't the Ritz Carlton...if you don't like it, Don't Come Back."

He bought Newt Gingrich's lecture series on videotape; that he pipes into the jails for the inmates to enjoy! Not!

When asked by a reporter if he had any lecture series by a Democrat, he replied "a democratic lecture series might explain why a lot of the inmates are in his jail in the first place."

With temperatures being even hotter than usual in Phoenix (116 Degrees), the Associated Press reports: About 2,000 inmates living in a barbed-wire-surrounded tent encampment at the Maricopa County Jail have been given permission to strip down to their government-issued pink boxer shorts.

On Wednesday, hundreds of men wearing boxers were either curled up on their bunk beds or chatting in the tents; which reached 138 degrees inside the week before...many were also swathed in wet, pink towels as sweat collected on their chests and dripped down to their PINK SOCKS.

'It feels like we are in a furnace,' said James Zanzot, an inmate who has lived in the TENTS for 1 year. 'It's Inhumane.' he stated.

Joe Arpaio, the tough-guy sheriff who created the tent city and long ago started making his prisoners wear pink, and eat bologna sandwiches, is not one bit sympathetic. He said Wednesday that he told all of the inmates: "It's 120 degrees in Iraq and our soldiers are living in tents too, and they have to wear full battle gear.

But they didn't commit any crimes, so Shut Your Mouths!"

Way To Go, Sheriff! Maybe if all prisons were like this one there would be
a lot less crime and or repeat offenders. Criminals should be punished for their crimes - not live in luxury until it's time for their parole, only to go out and commit another crime so they can come back to live on taxpayers money and enjoy things some taxpayers can't afford to have for themselves.

Warm sunshine on a cold day



Angela, the kind soul who picks Saints of the Year for people, has given me this award. She's very kind considering the amount I've been blogging has dropped off dramatically! Thank you, Angela!

“These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers. Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award.”

I'm going to pare down that amount a bit and "pick two."

[drum roll]

Mairin at Child of Mary

Chris at Chris and Company

25 January 2009

Excuse me while I...

spew, but maybe "ralf" is more ladylike.

I was born after Kennedy was assassinated, long after the whole civil rights movement was at full-boil. I missed the Beatles on Ed Sullivan, but did manage to see "man" land on the moon. Back then, it seemed the world was going crazy with sex, drugs and rock & roll. But what is it that we have collectively ingested recently that has gotten us well beyond that hedonistic stage?

According to hubby's aunt, any nay-saying I may do about HRH Barack Obama is racist. Honestly, she used that word. So far, my Webster's dictionary does not have the word "racist" anywhere in the definition of "disagree."

Let's look:
Disagree: 1. To fail to agree. 2. To have a different opinion. 3. To argue or quarrel. 4. To cause adverse effects.

It's not Barack Obama's race I don't like, it's his views on life that I have a "disagreement" with. He could be white, like Hillary, and I'd still disagree with him. He is my president and I will support him, up to the point of where I disagree with him on the fundamental right to life.

I come from a long line of military folks, I get the whole idea of "God and country." I get that God comes first in that equation.

Now if Alan Keyes had won the Republican nomination, I would've voted for him in a heart-beat. Even if Hillary, a white woman, was his Democratic opponent. Especially if Hillary had been the Democratic opponent. When will these people see that it isn't their skin color or race or sex or shoe size that I disagree with, it's their politics?

My MIL was still giddy about the inauguration when hubby talked to her late in the week. But, it was all just emotion. She couldn't say what HRH BO was going to do for her, what he would do for the country, what she expected he would do, what she hoped he would do. Bottom line: he wasn't Bush. No rationale, no game plan, no objectives about HRH BO, just glee that "change" had come to America. She did manage to state that change should NOT include increasing taxes, expanding entitlements, more bail outs, or wasting money in foreign countries because we sure need to focus on our problems here at home.

First, I question why she votes Democratic when she disagrees with all the policies of this party except abortion. It wasn't so funny when I told her that one of the first things HRH BO did wasn't to sign legislation that would help the unemployed or those losing their homes or the middle class, it was to use our tax dollars to fund over-seas abortions.

Like you didn't see that coming.

Our country is busy clamoring for change, for a leader -- almost for a king. I hope we remember to read the play book on that one to see how that all turned out previously. Some are calling for an amendment to the Constitution to allow HRH BO to serve more than two terms. Aside from the fact that the man has only been in office a few days and the fact that he hasn't put a chicken in anyone's pot yet, be careful what you wish for.

21 January 2009

Silent retreat


I've been planning to attend one of the Miles Christi silent retreats for a long, long time. Now that I'm not nursing or pregnant, it seems like a perfect time. There is a retreat coming up in late March that I hope to attend and asked the coordinator to send me more specifics, like the cost.

I'm in shock. I knew the cost of the weekend was around $200, but getting the information with the costs on it really took my breath away. The cost was actually $230.

Since I've become a stay-at-home mom I've tried to live very frugally. I clip coupons, I go to garage sales, I turn off lights. Recently, I was starting to plan what books and other items I would use next year for homeschooling and was agonizing over spending $170 for the bulk of the year. That's just an early estimate and it will likely go up, but right now $230 is a chunk of change considering all the other things I could do with the money.

I understand that the retreat center needs to make money, I know the Miles Christi priests need to be paid, but even when I could've afforded $200, I still would've thought it pricey. I'm currently using paleolithic dial-up because DSL would cost twice as much as I'm paying. We got two converter boxes because we have old TVs and don't have cable.

I know the benefits of the retreat to my spiritual life will be worth it...I just have to decide which organ I plan to sell to get the money to attend.

19 January 2009

Six of one

...half a dozen of the other. I can't keep up and I can't keep score.

Below is a collection of some articles I received that make you smile and others that leave you scratching your head.

Parish’s Big Victories

December 21, 2008-January 3, 2009 Issue

When pro-life messages and actions are consistent and regular, pro-life fruits are sweet and abundant. The 4 1/2-year-old parish of St. Helena of the True Cross of Jesus Catholic Church in Corpus Christi, Texas, is seeing several ripen.

Every Tuesday, in numbers too big to ignore, parishioners plant themselves in front of the city’s one remaining abortion business. They pray the Rosary and offer counseling. Led by their pastor, Father James Farfaglia, they’ve been at it for nearly two years.

Thanks to the work of Bishop Emeritus Rene Gracida, along with a very active chapter of Operation Rescue, three of the city’s four abortion businesses had closed by the time the St. Helena group got a full head of steam. Only one remained. On Jan. 22, 2007, after Father Farfaglia finished the Rosary during the annual diocesan Roe v. Wade protest at this lone business, he asked parishioner and longtime pro-life worker Ray Reeves: What next?

* Full story can be found here and more here.
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Planned Parenthood Staffer Resigns

Saturday, December 20, 2008

INDIANAPOLIS — A Planned Parenthood of Indiana counselor has resigned after an undercover video showed her telling a woman posing as a 13-year-old that she didn't care about the age of the man who impregnated her, the group said Friday.
Two videos shot at the organization's clinics by an anti-abortion group appear to show workers unconcerned about state law requiring anyone learning of sexual acts between an adult and a child under 14 to report them to police or child welfare authorities. A nursing aide seen in the other video was previously fired.

Planned Parenthood said Friday it has enlisted an outside group to help retrain its workers on the legal requirements for reporting abuse.

Planned Parenthood of Indiana's president and CEO, Betty Cockrum, also called on the anti-abortion group Live Action to give it copies of all the undercover video it shot at clinics in Bloomington and Indianapolis that showed a young patient claiming she had been impregnated by an older man.

"It's right for us to see what our staff said and did," Cockrum said.

The steps were announced a day after the Marion County Prosecutor's Office in Indianapolis said it would have a grand jury investigate whether any laws were broken at the Planned Parenthood clinic in Indianapolis.\

"We took swift action. Both employees were immediately suspended," Cockrum said in a telephone interview Friday. "Both are no longer working for us."

Video released by Live Action on Tuesday shows a counselor at the Indianapolis clinic and 20-year-old UCLA student Lila Rose, who was posing as a 13-year-old and says the man who impregnated her was 31.

"I don't care how old he is," the counselor says in the video.

The Indianapolis counselor, who has not been identified, resigned in the middle of the organization's investigation, Planned Parenthood spokeswoman Kate Shepherd said.

The nursing aide fired earlier from the Bloomington clinic made a similar claim in the other video. Both videos were shot in June.

Rose said Friday the group was sending both unedited videos from Indiana to authorities, even though they had not yet been contacted. She also has said her group intends to post the unedited video online.

"Self-regulation has not worked for Planned Parenthood as they have routinely evaded the very Indiana laws that protect children from sexual abuse," Rose said in a prepared statement. She said Indiana authorities should investigate and hold Planned Parenthood accountable for its "criminal activity."

Cockrum denied the two cases indicated Planned Parenthood has a culture of failing to report sexual activity by underage children, as some opponents have alleged. She said her organization conducts audits to turn up abuse cases that haven't been reported.

Planned Parenthood reported 123 cases of suspected child abuse to Indiana authorities in 2007, Shepherd said.

"I'm very serious when I say it's an imperative here. We take this reporting requirement very seriously," Cockrum said.

Planned Parenthood has enlisted Prevent Child Abuse Indiana to help it retrain staff. Sandy Runkle, programs director for the anti-abuse group, said members met with Planned Parenthood on Thursday.

Runkle said it was too early to say what form the retraining would take and who would provide it.

Planned Parenthood employs a staff of more than 200 at its 35 health clinics across Indiana.

Video http://liveactionfilms.org/
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Planned Parenthood makes staff cuts
Funding declines partly attributed to Madoff.

Hit with declines in funding from the economic crisis and the Madoff scandal, the Planned Parenthood Federation of America is laying off around 20% of its staff.
Roughly 30 people were let go earlier this week, according to a source who works for the nonprofit. Executives at Planned Parenthood confirmed the layoffs, but declined to give more details.

“As with many other nonprofit organizations, Planned Parenthood has had to make staff reductions at our headquarters due to the challenging economic times facing our country,” said Maryana Iskander, chief operating officer at the agency. “While taking this action is never easy, we want to ensure the millions of women and men who rely on Planned Parenthood as a health care provider that the reductions will not impact our ability to deliver care to those in need.”

Part of Planned Parenthood’s funding declines stem from the closing of the Florida-based Picower Foundation, which shut down in December because its assets were managed by Bernard Madoff. The $1 billion foundation was one of the few major funders of reproductive rights issues.

Story can be found here.
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Planned Parenthood Letter

From: Planned Parenthood MN/ND/SD Action Fund
Subject: The verse is the story. The verse is the message.

"Politicians never hear the verse; they only hear the chorus."

My friend, songwriter Gretchen Peters, took solace in those words the night her song, "Independence Day," was used to introduce Gov. Sarah Palin to the RNC. She had just finished a performance in Ft. Worth, TX, and her song -- about a woman in a desperate situation -- had been used by a politician who didn't know what it was about, and who doesn't relate to women like Gretchen and me.

She put it best herself: "But the verse is the story. The verse is the message."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4D-p-DbsTp8

Gretchen decided to do something remarkable: she donated the proceeds she received from "Independence Day" -- from the moment Gov. Palin took the stage that day until Election Day -- to Planned Parenthood. Supporters like Gretchen -- and like you --are the reason we have a strong, vibrant organization that helps people throughout the world. I can't ever thank you enough.
http://gretchenpeters.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=478&Itemid=46

As always, sincerely,

Cecile Richards, President
Planned Parenthood Federation of America

Gretchen Peters has written and performed for audiences around the world. Last month, she played her hit song "Independence Day" just for Planned Parenthood. Watch the video here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4D-p-DbsTp8
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Independence Day by Gretchen Peters

Well she seemed all right by dawn's early light
Though she looked a little worried and weak
She tried to pretend he wasn't drinkin' again
But daddy left the proof on her cheek
and I was only eight years old that summer
And I always seemed to be in the way
So I took myself down to the fair in town
On Independence Day

Well word gets a round in a small, small town
They said he was a dangerous man
Mama was proud and she stood her ground
But she knew she was on the losin' end
Some folks whispered and some folks talked
But everybody looked the other way
And when time ran out there was no one about
On Independence Day

CHORUS:
Let Freedom ring
Let the white dove sing
Let the whole world know that today
Is a Day of reckoning
Let the weak be strong
Let the right be wrong
Roll the stone away
Let the guilty pay
It's Independence Day

Well she lit up the sky that fourth of July
By the time that the firemen come
They just put out the flames
and took down some names
And send me to the county home
Now I ain't sayin' it's right or it's wrong
But maybe it's the only way
Talk about your revolution
It's Independence Day

CHORUS

Roll the stone away
It's Independence Day
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Remember Catholics for Kerry?
By Donald R. McClarey

Hattip to Jay Anderson at Pro Ecclesia and The Catholic Report. Eric McFadden was the founder of Catholics for Kerry, a group which proudly proclaimed that Catholics should support John Kerry notwithstanding his support for abortion.

After the election McFadden went on to bigger and better things when he was appointed by Ted Strickland, pro-abort Democrat governor of Ohio, in February 2007 to head the Ohio Office of Faith Based Initiatives.

McFadden resigned from that position in October of 2007.

McFadden also served as head of Catholic outreach for the Clinton campaign in 2008. And here we have him making the first comment in this thread, carrying water for pro-abort Obama.

Then we have McFadden writing a public letter attacking Supreme Knight Carl Anderson of the Knights of Columbus for reminding Catholics that Obama and Biden hold views on abortion diametrically opposed to the Catholic Church.

Yesterday he was arrested and charged with running a prostitution ring for 6 years in Columbus, Ohio.

You know, try as I might I am having a hard time being shocked by this story. After continually attempting to rally support for pro-aborts running for the highest office in the land, and doing so under the banner of a Church that views abortion as an abomination, being involved in prostitution during the same time period doesn’t seem like that big of a step to me.

Check out this link for more on the story.

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H/T to Jean, Carley and Ray for all the stories

18 January 2009

Being a friend

There was a call on the answering machine the other day that tugged at my heart. It was from one of the Carmelite brothers telling us he missed our visits and friendship. We haven't visited him and the other brothers in quite some time. It could be a year or more.

While my father knew many priests and I grew up having dinner with his very good priest friend every Saturday night, you'd think I'd feel a little more comfortable around priests and religious. I don't. Other than baptisms and things like that, I don't seek out friendships with them, even just to say "hello" and be social.

Maybe it has something to do with the words of Our Lady, telling us to respect priests because they are hers. We are not to criticize them, we are to pray for them and entrust them to her. Hard to do sometimes.

Our family has a long history with the Carmelites in the area. Ever since I was a child, we attended midnight Mass in their cold and very austere chapel. My father was friends with Father John Mary long before Father became a priest. They remained friends until my father's passing, with Father John performing Last Rites for him. My father also was friends with the Jesuit priest, Father Stokel, who said Mass for the Carmelite sisters long before Father John established his cloister for the hermit brothers there and took over the duties of saying Mass for the sisters.

At my mother's funeral Mass, five priests concelebrated. All long-time (even childhood) friends of the family, except Monsignor Lavin from St. Thomas, who attended because I was a student there at the time.

This is just too much for my sensibilities. I can't explain why exactly, but when our parish priest came to bless our home many years ago and stayed for dinner, I remember being on pins and needles until he left. It was one thing to set up an appointment and speak to him in the rectory, but to have him in my home was a cause of anxiety. Even when he came to visit my father on several occasions when my father was dying, I stumbled all over my words every time he was here.

I became friends with one of the Carnelite brothers during the time my father was dying. This brother called every day to see how I was and to find out how my father was doing. After my father passed away, we began taking food out to the brothers. At first we were allowed access to most of the cloister. Then when we brought food, we were allowed into the entry way, eventually we were told to leave it on the step.

To me, this is what I expected of a cloister with hermit brothers. Running all over the cloister just didn't seem right. I completely respected their desire to live their vocation and to be removed from the world.

Then we had kids and the number of our visits dropped dramatically. I began writing this brother to stay in touch and to also allow him the solitude to live the contemplative life of his vocation. Eventually, I began to feel this was an intrusion too and stopped writing.

This Christmas, I sent a Christmas card as I usually do, but was surprised to get a call from the brother relating how he missed having contact with our family. I had never asked HIM how he felt, I had just unilaterally stopped writing.

Another friend and I have been out of contact for a few years now. This person is very difficult to get along with, although it would be interesting to hear her description of me! The last phone conversation we had, and in the last correspondence I received, she said she would call me. That was over a year ago. So, I sent a Christmas card with an update on all the things that have been happening lately. Surprisingly, I received a very warm Christmas card back with numerous Masses. Again, she said she would call.

I'm beginning to see I might need to call her.

Similarly, husband's aunt and I used to be very close. We talked all the time. In the past few years, however, she's kind of retreated, primarily because her husband is dying. I grew tired to calling her repeatedly, having the conversation cut short and her telling me she would call me back, but never keeping her word. I gave up trying.

But, I know how it is to be coping with having a loved one suffer from a serious illness. I remember how I felt let down by friends and family who didn't call or visit.

So, I think it's time to re-evaluate what kind of friend I have been to these people and to others. I think I can manage to write a letter or pick up the phone. Sometimes, a simple act of kindness goes a long way.

17 January 2009

Jumping to conclusions

The MN Catholic Homeschool Conference isn't going to be at St. Thomas this year.

It's going to be at arguably the most liberal college in the state...Macalester.

When I found out about the change in venue, my first thoughts were that St. Thomas was making it hard for the homeschool conference to be held there...kind of like they did to make the Chesterton conference hit the road for Seattle (granted that was over an issue of smoking cigars).

What would happen to the Mass that was always offered? How could a Catholic, albeit CINO, university be so unaccommodating that the Catholic Homeschool Conference packed its bags and inexplicably headed for Macalester.

Well, maybe I need to cut St. Thomas some slack, although the university has been unfailing in giving me reasons to bash my alma mater. Turns out there is a big construction project at St. Thomas that requires the conference to relocate this year. Mass will still be held. All is well.

See you at the conference!

16 January 2009

Unseen hand

It's been a rough few weeks with my cold. Haven't been sleeping very well at all. So, I was not happy when the smoke alarm went off in our room at 2am.

It was cold (-20 F). It was the middle of the night. There was no fire.

Needless to say, I was busy cursing the detector as hubby ripped it off the wall and disconnected it. I felt the fates were against me ever getting a good night's sleep ever again.

Hubby wanted to give the house a good going over, curious about why a hard-wired detector would go off the in the calm and dark of night.

A quick check of the house discovered that the furnace was off. Holy moly, the furnace was off.

At this point we were both a bit stunned because we have three carbon monoxide detectors in the house. It would've been understandable if one of those had gone off since we have gas heat and with the furnace off or malfunctioning, carbon monoxide could've become a problem.

Fortunately, it seems a piece of debris had fallen right on the pilot light and hubby was able to get it started without too much trouble. It would've been awful to have slept until morning with temps that cold...there could've been some serious problems.

Despite all the commotion and noise, neither one of the kids woke up.

But why the smoke detector in our room?

Was that you, Guardian Angels?

15 January 2009

Connections


I heard it mentioned on EWTN the other night that all the analysis of the blood from Eucharistic miracles (primarily at Lanciano) turns out to be the type AB. While I don't know if there is any significance that Jesus' blood type is AB, it did pique my curiosity because my blood type is AB.

One thing I had known, is the analysis also showed that the flesh tested turned out to be cardiac tissue. Not only do we receive Christ in the Eucharist, but we receive His heart. How amazing is that? Tell me God doesn't have a sense of humor and appreciate irony. Guess we need to be hit over the head to believe in the Real Presence, but the subtle things, like the type of tissue, that are contained in these miracles are astounding. (For more on the story of Lanciano, click on the link at the bottom of the post to read about the monk who was having doubts about the Real Presence.)

The more I read the bible and attend bible study, the more I start to appreciate how it all connects, how Christ did come to fulfill what had been prophesied. And, in reading about these Eucharistic miracles, it presents such a seamless case that God really has a hand in all this, down to the last details.

It's interesting to find that at Lanciano:
*The flesh is real flesh. The blood is real blood.
*The flesh consists of the muscular tissue of the heart (myocardium)
*The flesh and blood belong to the human species.
*The flesh and blood have the same blood type (AB).
*In the blood, there were found proteins in the same normal proportions as are found in the sero-proteic make up of fresh, normal blood.
*In the blood, there were also found these minerals: Chlorides, phosphorous, magnesium, potassium, sodium and calcium. The preservation of the flesh and of the blood, which were left in their natural state for twelve centuries (without any chemical preservatives) and exposed to the action of atmospheric and biological agents, remains an extraordinary phenomenon.

The findings even over lap with the Shroud of Turin, with analysis on the Shroud showing the blood type to be AB.
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Physician Tells of Eucharistic Miracle of Lanciano

Edoardo Linoli Verified Authenticity of the Phenomenon

ROME, MAY 5, 2005 (Zenit.org).- Dr. Edoardo Linoli says he held real cardiac tissue in his hands, when some years ago he analyzed the relics of the Eucharistic miracle of Lanciano, Italy.

The phenomenon dates back to the eighth century. A Basilian monk, who had doubts about the real presence of Christ in the sacred species, was offering Mass, in a church dedicated to St. Legontian in the town of Lanciano.

When he pronounced the words of the consecration, the host was miraculously changed into physical flesh and the wine into physical blood.

Later the blood coagulated and the flesh remained the same. These relics were kept in the cathedral.

Linoli, a professor of anatomy and pathological histology, and of chemistry and clinical microscopy, and former head of the Laboratory of Pathological Anatomy at the Hospital of Arezzo, is the only doctor who has analyzed the relics of the miracle of Lanciano. His findings have stirred interest in the scientific world.

At the initiative of Archbishop Pacifico Perantoni of Lanciano, and of the provincial minister of the Franciscan Conventuals of Abruzzo, and with authorization from Rome, in November 1970 the Franciscans of Lanciano decided to have the relics examined scientifically.

Linoli was entrusted with the study. He was assisted by Dr. Ruggero Bertelli, retired professor of human anatomy at the University of Siena.

Linoli extracted parts of the relics with great care and then analyzed the remains of "miraculous flesh and blood." He presented his findings on March 4, 1971.

His study confirmed that the flesh and blood were of human origin. The flesh was unequivocally cardiac tissue, and the blood was of type AB.

Consulted by ZENIT, Linoli explained that "as regards the flesh, I had in my hand the endocardium. Therefore, there is no doubt at all that it is cardiac tissue."

In regard to the blood, the scientist emphasized that "the blood group is the same as that of the man of the holy Shroud of Turin, and it is particular because it has the characteristics of a man who was born and lived in the Middle East regions."

"The AB blood group of the inhabitants of the area in fact has a percentage that extends from 0.5% to 1%, while in Palestine and the regions of the Middle East it is 14-15%," Linoli said.

Linoli's analysis revealed no traces of preservatives in the elements, meaning that the blood could not have been extracted from a corpse, because it would have been rapidly altered.

Linoli's report was published in "Quaderni Sclavo di Diagnostica Clinica e di Laboratori" in 1971.

In 1973, the Higher Council of the World Health Organization (WHO) appointed a scientific commission to verify the Italian doctor's conclusions. The work was carried out over 15 months with a total of 500 examinations. The conclusions of all the researches confirmed what had been stated and published in Italy.

The extract of the scientific research of WHO's medical commission was published in New York and Geneva in 1976, confirming science's inability to explain the phenomenon.

Today, Linoli participated in a congress on Eucharistic miracles organized by the Science and Faith master's program of Rome's Regina Apostolorum Pontifical University, in cooperation with the St. Clement I Pope and Martyr Institute, on the occasion of the Year of the Eucharist under way.

"Eucharistic miracles are extraordinary phenomena of a different type," Legionary Father Rafael Pascual, director of the congress, told Vatican Radio. "For example, there is the transformation of the species of bread and wine into flesh and blood, the miraculous preservation of consecrated Hosts, and some Hosts that shed blood."

"In Italy, these miracles have occurred in several places," he said, "but we also find them in France, Germany, the Netherlands, Spain " and some in North America.
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Another good article can be found here.

14 January 2009

Not my pay grade

Sorry I haven't been blogging in ages. Still have a cold. Just when I thought it was on its last legs, I got congested again last night. I'm still much better than I had been, so don't call a priest just yet.

I also got a new computer and have been battling with the thing since the moment it came in the house. It's not the computer, it's me. I'm quickly becoming a card-carrying Luddite and technology is getting the better of me. Windows Vista is a nightmare...I liked being able to control the operating system, do commands in DOS, make the computer do what I wanted it to do. Now the thing is smarter than I am and does as it pleases. I'm scrambling to figure out how it works and just get myself back to Square One.

Which brings me to my point. I still don't have my camera software installed. Heck, I just got the printer hooked up yesterday, but can't hook-up my very cool, but very old scanner because it doesn't have a USB port. Because I don't have the camera hooked up, I can't show you a picture of the gift my neighbor gave us.

My neighbor is wonderful. He's got to be in his 70s, but gets out and walks MILES every day. If the snow falls, don't worry, Bob will be out there to shovel -- shovel us out before he even shovels himself out. This winter my husband has tried to get out there before Bob, just to be neighborly too, but Bob is hard to top, he's relentless in doing kind things. During the summer, he cuts our grass. Cuts it all summer long. Here's an older gentleman out cutting our grass, the grass of two able-bodied folks. I've even told him we could cut our own grass a few times, but he insists we are too busy with my hubby working and me taking care of the kids. No use in arguing with him, because he insists on helping out.

He seems to take pleasure in doing these things, and many others, for us and we are very grateful. It's like having an angel living next door. At Christmas, we always remember Bob with a small gift, just a small way of thanking him for all he does. One year, knowing he likes to make home-made wine, we got him a large wine rack to store his bottles in (he's always telling us to come over and get a bottle of wine...but I'm not a big fan of wine so usually serve the stuff at the cabin).

Bob loved the wine rack. He raved about it for a very long time. Being active and handy, he reverse-engineered the thing and began building wine racks for friends. Not just a rack, but an entire cabinet that looks like a piece of furniture. When his friends would visit, he would introduce us to them, telling them we were the ones who bought him the wine rack and got him started on his latest hobby of wine cabinet building. Late at night and early in the morning, Bob is in the shop in his garage building his friends wine cabinets.

This year, we were shocked that he had built one for us. It is quite a labor of love.

If I had to point to a person who lives his faith, it would be Bob. If he's in his yard, he always greets you. He is always looking out for our family, always offering his time and resources, always offering to help at any task, always in a happy mood.

But Bob doesn't attend church. Not any church. I know he was raised a Catholic. With his very Irish last name, it would be remarkable to not be Catholic. Unfortunately, his childhood was not happy. Without giving us the details, he told us his mother had turned him off to religion and also turned him off to marriage. To this day, the man is single and doesn't attend church.

Still, Bob's heart is very kind. He opened his house to a friend's daughter who was attending the University of St. Thomas. It isn't too far to the campus from here and he allowed her to live rent free. She is from a very devout Catholic family and has been a good influence on Bob, hanging scapulars around his house and dotting it with other sacramentals.

I wish Bob attended church. I wish he had some formal religion in his life and am glad God gets to be the one to judge, not me. I pray for God's mercy for Bob, but then am left wondering if he's the one who has merited Heaven by his fidelity to God's Word and I'll be the one spit out because of my tepid faith.

02 January 2009

First haircut

Took my daughter to get her first haircut the other day. She's a little over three years old and I haven't cut her hair at all. It was easier with my son because I cut his hair from early on and got control of it, but with my daughter, her hair was all different lengths from the time of her birth and it was more than I wanted to attempt. Especially considering she's pretty touchy about anyone messing with her hair, even to comb it and get a barrett in it. So, off to Kid's Hair we went.

Before

She was excited to go to the hair cut shop (because we got my son a cut before Christmas so she thought she would be able to sit around and play while her brother got chopped.) When she realized she was the one to get a haircut, she protested quite loudly.

During


But, once she got in the seat, she was a champ. Getting to watch Elmo while getting her hair cut helped, and the sucker and sticker she received at the end seemed to smooth things over nicely.

At home playing with bubble wrap after her ordeal


Sorry, not able to really blog since I've been struggling with a nasty head cold since Christmas Eve. The haircut was the extent of our exciting week having hubby home...he's also sick. And a great time was had by all.